Balmain's Done it again

Balmain, DJ Phoenix would like to order these dresses immediately to rock while working on the 1's and 2's. Thank you. Very Much.

Totally Feeling Dolce&Gabbana Fall 2010 Collection

I love these...It's where I'm headed, fashion wise...

Jumping the Broom Vol. 1- Conquering Fears

I am madly, deeply, dangerously in love with my fiancee'. I can not wait to marry this man. He is so incredible, I love him more and more daily, and I literally mean that. Yesterday, I was just meditating on how lucky I am that a man like Hashim considers ME to be his dreamgirl.
But sometimes, I freak out. Being like a sponge in this engagement process, trying to soak all helpful tidbits about marriage is actually, I'm realizing, a terrible idea.
At church I have lots and lots of young married friends. Everyone has their own story of union but I cannot say that everyone is living happily ever after. Women have projected all kinds of fears into me:

1. "Girl, you better get all the performing you want to do out now because Hashim is NOT gonna be okay with you going on tour."
2. "There will be no surprizes, everything little thing he does now is a hint at what is to come. It's YOUR responsibility to pay attention and watch the signs"
3. "After you get married, your freedom just goes out the window. Sometimes I wish I was still single!"
4. "On my wedding night, I knew I made a mistake"
5. "There is no happily ever after. There's just hard work. But I guess its worth it"


When I first heard comments like these I would just nod my head, like, "okay...mmmm...yeah."

Which led to my eventual melt down on Valentine's Day when Hashim JOKINGLY said," Well after we get married, you're going to have different dreams. You probably won't want to be touring anymore."

Which led me to respond like this:
"You see, I knew it! (Sob, tears) You trying to make me sit at home and twidle my thumbs and let all my dreams fall away and they told me to watch the signs, and this is a sign and, and( a little bit of snot flowing now) and if you don't want me to perform then you should have said it before and, and and, (the ugly cry face in full force) and maybe this isn't going to work!"

Of course Hashim was totally taken off guard. Because he is a spiritual man he stepped away to pray and came back. He reassured me that he was completely joking and that all I have to worry about is him making a really bad joke from time to time. He reminded me that he has ALWAYS supported my dreams and that whatever I can handle, he can handle.

After I had some time to pray I realized that I have been internalizing a lot of fear. The mistakes your parents made, your friends parents, your friends, all that can compile into a heap of fear.

I mean no wonder the Cosby Show was so amazing. Claire and Cliff were fully self-actualized adults, happy, fulfilled, and affectionate. I know that's a t.v. show that I grew up on, but am I crazy to think that kind of life is possible for me?

Other than what the Bible says about marriage, the rest is up to us. Hashim and I are going off into that journey and we will define and redefine what marriage is all about for us. That's what I'm most excited about. Let the wild rumpus begin!!!!!

Single Ladies' Valentine's Day

Check out Hashim's article for Hello Beautiful tonight:


http://hellobeautiful.com/your-man/hello-beautiful-staff/for-single-ladies-only-planning-a-magic-valentines-day/

I'm Getting Married!

Per request from my loving friends I've decided to let all you in on the behind the scenes...I hope I don't say anything that I'll regret but here's to 2010 and taking risks!

God has blessed Hashim and I tremendously with our wedding process! Hashim has definitely set the tone with his perfect proposal. We have tried to be organized and worked really hard in the beginning so that we can chill later. The checklist on The Knot website is so intimidating...Before we even started planning according to our wedding date we were behind schedule on 100 items and we have like 298 items to go! It's January 29, and we have 133 days to go. So far we've got the venue booked, my dress and shoes, a make-up artist, awesome DJ for the reception and after 5 or 6 debates we've finally decided that Eggplant and Raspberry are the colors. We're going to St. Lucia for the honeymoon and all we need now is plane tickets and Hashim's passport. The website is up, the registries are almost done. Who knew how difficult it would be to pick out 300+gifts! Sometimes I feel like its so far away but I know it's just around the corner.
Last week we started to talking about what the culture of our family would be like. Stuff like will we eat breakfast together every morning or wait up for each other to go to sleep at night. I am so excited by the fact that we get to set the standard and the values for our family. It makes me realize we have so much to learn!

FELA!

I was so fortunate to work on this show a few years ago when the staging was just coming together. So glad to see it come into fruition on this level. Hashim treated me to a second row seat for my birthday. Yeah Yeah!
Then:














Now

The Passionate Debutant Mixtape

THE PASSIONATE DEBUTANT MIXTAPE


This is a live mix recorded at Scratch DJ Academy NY, NY

Artists Include:
Phoenix Rise-Maxwell
Higher-Theophilus London (feat. Jesse Boykins III)
Right Hand Hi- Kid Sister
Bassment Party-The Cool Kids
Supersonic-J.J. Fad
Bass on the Bottom- The Lady Tigra
Chillin- Wale (feat. Lady Gaga)
Drop It Like It's Hot-Snoop Dogg & Pharrell
C.R.E.A.M- Wu Tang Clan
Kryptonite-Big Boi
Off That- Jay-Z (feat. Drake)
See Line Woman- Nina Simone
Quiet Dog-Mos Def
My Drive Thru-Santogold, Julian Casablancas & Nerd
Celebration (Benny Benassi Remix Edit)-Madonna

ENJOY!!!

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