Last night I decided to catch up my non-cable having self on music videos. I work a lot with teen girls and young people so I feel that I should from time to time make an effort to know what's really going on outside of my interests. Watching the latest videos I felt like the little girl on the latest Dove commercial where they flash all these ads of women and at the end of the commercial the little girl is sitting on the couch taking it all in.
Since I have been walking with the Lord I have had to change my look. Those of you who know me pre-2002, remember me as the one with the stretch jeans and the backless shirt, or in the low back mini-dress. I was so excited when I graduated from High School. No more dress codes! There was not too many a day I wasn't strutting around the Atlanta University Center with out some kind of short short or mid-drift top. Although I was a cheerleader in High School and a dance major I never really felt like I was in the "in-crowd". In college I loved the attention my figure showing outfits provided. As I was going through my bible studies that really made me examine my life we came to the dreaded topic. Modesty.
The loving sisters that studied the Bible with me told me that I would have to change. I remember mumbling with teary eyes, "I can't be cute anymore?"
I couldn't even imagine a world without plunging necklines and tube dresses.
Years have passed and I have figured out how to dress my curvy figure in a way that is flattering and still Godly. But being a woman in this world is still a struggle. Someone once shared with me, something like "Men struggle with looking at pornography but women struggle with committing pornography".
It takes a lot of spiritual effort to live like this. It's easy to base how fine I am on how many hollers at I get walking down the street. Of course I want my boyfriend to be attracted to me. Thank God he's attracted to me for so much more than how I look.
Janelle Monae's performance at Summerstage this afternoon was so inspiring. She's a gorgeous woman not resorting to dropping it and popping it to get ahead. It encouraged me to keep on keeping on. When I get ahead it probably won't be the easy or most obvious route but at least my soul will still be attached.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
WANNA SEE ME DANCE?
INSPIRIT is performing at several venues this summer...Here's the run down:
Sunday July 27-The Dance Place, 8th Street, N.E. Washington, D.C., Call 202-269-1600 for Tickets
Thursday July 31-Saturday Aug. 1- Solar 1 Festival, Stuyvesant Cove Park, 23rd Street and the FDR, NYC, FREE!!!!
August 10- Summerstage, St. Mary's Park, Bronx, NY, FREE!!!!
Hope to see you there!
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
I've just returned home from the American Dance Festival performance of Ronald K. Brown/Evidence, Cleo Parker Robinson Dance Ensemble and Doug Varone and Dancers. Slightly delirious from teaching at The Governor's School this morning and taking class this afternoon, humming while consuming a late night dosage of Veggie Chips and Pomegranate Blueberry Juice, my brother yelling GO TO BED!, I am so inspired I HAVE to write.
For years I have been a hard core fan of Evidence and have great respect for what Cleo Parker Robinson has done, but tonight I am gushing over Varone's piece LUX.
This piece is a delicious swirling delight. The choreography never stops and his dancers move like pudding. They move with such ease and precision; they are soft, circular, gallant and direct. The work is so complex, so layered, the timing of the dancers demands perfection, otherwise it would all fall apart. Not only are they working hard but they are loving it. I love to watch dancers who are eating up the moment, reveling in it, so inside of the process, and present with every breath. Doug Varone and Dancers where have you been all my life?